Transferred from my Xanga: Wishing Upon a Star

What a girl wish for does not means what a girl need. I came across this story and I stop wishing for a boy friend. The story goes something like this:

This girl name *G* has her 1^st boy friend and it was *A*. He so nice to *G*. He doesn mind showing *G* to his friends and family. I do not know how to describe about *A*, but I can tell you *G* have been admiring him for sometimes until she realized that she just like his personality but not really fall in love with him. Seriously he is such a fine young man. Too bad that he is not *G* type. She want someone that is mature and could lead her, but not *G* lead the way. Being with *A*, *G* is the mature one. She does all the talking and they barely have any topics to start their conversation. So *G* wish for someone with a sweet mouth, at least they have something to talk about.

Yes, *G* wish come true again. She met a guy, *B* which happen to be her neighbor.  According to *B*, he had been noticing her for months and wanted to date her but do not have the guts. So they went for their first date and it went according to *G* wish. Their relationship improve so fast that *G* don even believe that they had just know each other for 1 week and only went for few dates. *B* is the perfect guy. He cooks, he do house core, he loves *G* so much. He sends her 12 roses every morning attached with a card writing a beautiful sentence. They like the same songs, food and everything. He even talks about his feelings which guys will never do that to their girl friend. He is really a super perfect guy. Not long later, *G* realized *B* is just too perfect for her. She does not deserve such a perfect guy. And she does not need a perfect guy.

Not long later after breaking up with *B*, *G* meet another guy, *C*. *C* is *G* brother house-mate. Although he is not perfect, but *G* feels a very happy with *C* and she can show the real self to *C*. She does not have to do glossy hair, thick make-up, pretend to be perfect as well?.etc. The best thing is, *C* only read sports section and *G* only read fashion section for the news paper; *C* only eat red, brown and yellow M&Ms and *G* only eats blue and green. Individually, they may not be perfect, but when they are attached to each other, they made up a perfect couple. Most importantly, she did not wish for *C*.

Conclusion of the story is be careful what you wish for. What you wish for may not be what you really need. I have been doing a lot of wishing. Not true to say my wish does not come true, but it comes with a negative externalities. I have been wishing for a good result so that I could apply to the college that I want, and yes, I went into Taylor but I not really satisfied with my result. I wish that I could lose weight, I did, but I went to celebrate for it and end up gaining more. To cut straight into the main point, I wish for a relationship and I end the relationship when every one thinks that he his perfect. I did not break up because of the story above but because I realized I do not need a boyfriend now. I may not wish for any thing big now. I might only wish for something foolish and world peace.

Transferred from my Xanga: Story of a Girl Back in High School

Ie been doing a lot of observing, reading and thinking lately. I realized there are many kinds of people in this world. And 1 person may have few personalities instill in them. Back to high school, I came across this girl that I once knew. She has so many types of faces and reaction when facing different people. When she with those so-called-high-society-English-speaking-only friend, shel be those brainy attitude, being so friendly and humble just in case her friend found out she does not suits in the gang; when she with my class-mate, shel be isolated and so-called the only white dot on the black paper; shel be giving all kinds of idea that is impossible and thinking that she cool and creative; when she with me, shel be blurting all kind of branded stuff that she thinks it is nice(never trust her taste, believe me.) and showing of to me how rich she is.   

 

            She does not know that almost whole class does not like her. Only we never show. Quite often we talk bad about her and yet she still thinks she the best. during some class activity where everyone is enjoying and do all kind of catching up with friends, she will always be isolated and waiting for others to approach her. As Ie mention just now, almost most of us do not like her, hence, no one approach her. And I think she just hate catching up activity so much that she rather giving all kind of crappy excuse to not attend the activity.

 

            I sometimes wonder what is it so fun to lie about yourself being some luxury-spoilt-brat when you are actually just some ordinary people like all of us. Why do show off about your father being a committee of this golf club when my father know the management of that golf club and he the one that nominate cum made his buddy the committee of that club. Why do you tell people about going to gym of that club your father had already sell of the membership to other people and yet you do not know any thing about the gym room of that club? Why do you tell people that buying expensive branded stuff and living in the uxury?life when you can even effort a roxy bag? Why do you keep telling people about your house and your mixed-bread dog when some other people living in a much more luxury house and having pure bread dog, yet they never talk about it.

 

            Sometimes I really cannot stand the lie that very obvious it is a lie and end up have to go to somewhere else to laugh my head of or even made up some stupid excuse for laughing at those lie. However, come to think of it, if these people never exist, the world won have so much laughter. Conclusion, the world needs more laughter in order to live younger, so let them tell their imaginary life while we sit back, relax and ready to laugh. * smile*

Transferred from my Xanga: The Perfect Weekend

Michael Buble's album, novel from Alexandra Potter, a tube of TOBLERONE, and coffee bean's ULTIMATE; chilling in the fully air-condition room of mine; wrapping myself in the warm blanket; sitting on the comfy sofa facing the perfect window, watching rain falls when I head up from my novel once a while. The perfect weekend after AS. But I have no faith on this perfect plan. Instead of spending a weekend of heaven, I'll be spending a weekend of hell. Ms Pun made us do redemption assignment and Ms Harjit made us come back to college for replacement class during our after-exam-short-break. My so-called-most-dedicated lecturer took my perfect weekend away from me.

I think most probably Ms Pun will be enjoying her weekend with tons of four-finger-kit-kat, hot cocoa and reading Women from Venus met man from mars? No, I don't think so. She doesn't have a life. All she has is just accounting. So on another though, she'll be sitting in front of the desk and doing accounting work. Wait a minute, correction, is preparing more accounting tutorial for us and make our day miserable.

KL Gourmet Festival 2006 is here. And so is my house. Daddy cooks all kind of food from the range of Japanese's maki to Chinese Pei Pa duck; Mommy boiled herbal egg; Lai Ming baked cookie and Lai Yin did nothing but eat. And I'm quite disappointed because I missed Uncle Bob on Friday. And Lai Ming the bread-a-holic went to bread story and grab so many bread, as if it were free.

Anyway, this post is just mainly to whine about my perfect weekend. Hope you enjoy it.

bread my sis grab from bread story... scary huh...

she's insane... 100% bread-a-holic

Japanese Maki that my Dad make...

Transferred from my Xanga: Best Moment in Life

I came across this mail stated The Best Moments in Life. I kinda agree some of it but I did some alter in red.

1. Falling in love with the right guy/girl.

2. Laughing till your stomach hurts. 

3. Enjoying a ride down the country side. 

4. Listening to your favorite song on the radio. 

5. Going to sleep listening to the rain pouring outside. 

6. Getting out of the shower and wrapping yourself with a big warm, fuzzy towel. 

7. Passing your final exams with good grades.

8. Being part of an interesting conversation.

9. Finding some money in some old pants.

10. Laughing at yourself. 

11. Sharing a wonderful dinner with all your friends and family.

12. Laughing without a reason. 

13. "Accidentally" hearing someone say something good about you. 

14. Watching the sunset alone quietly. 

15. Listening to a song that reminds you of an important person in your life. 

16. Feeling this movement in your body when seeing this "special" someone right guy.

17. Having a great time with your friends and family.

18. Seeing the one you love happy. This is stupid. I'm so not going to agree with this. 

19. Wearing the shirt of a person you love and smelling his/her perfume. This is worst. This is ridiculous. 

20. Bounce into someone that you have not been seeing for a decade and Visiting an old friend of yours and remembering great memories.

21. Hearing someone the right guy/girl telling you "I LOVE YOU" NOT RANDOM PEOPLE PLEASE. 

Transferred from my Xanga: One Sad Day

What would you do when you realized you lost a friend? A friend that you care so much; A friend that you share every up and down of your life; A friend that used to tell you everything every single day; A friend that call and send you text message during class; A friend that you can even take him as your brother; A friend that would cries in front of you and whim about his life; A friend that used to rely on you so much; A friend that make your day; A friend that could cure all your sadness and depress; A friend that will cry together with you; A friend that will come to you when you call him; A friend that never say no to any things that I ask for; A friend that you can talk about guys, girls and football; A friend that gossip about some hot topics; A friend that will go mamak with you even it mid night; A friend that would stand up for you.

 

Yes, I think Ie lost this friend. He never called and only send text message to me once in a blue moon. He never care about every up and down of my life; He never tell me everything every single day even when there a big fight in his family; He do not take me as his half brother any more; He never cries in front of me and whim about his life; He rather rely on his new class mate; He never bother to make my day; He do not even know when I depress; He never listen to my cry; He did not come to me even when I called for emergency; He said no to things that we usually agree with; He never talk about guys, girls and football to me any more; I do not know when is the last time we chat; He even do not have the interest in going mamak with me; And I think he would never stand up for me any more.

 

Is it because I have a boyfriend and he think he shall not get too close with me? But my boyfriend knows him. He even said hel be the ring man in our wedding IF my current boyfriend and I really end up together for the entire life.

 

Is it because he has new friends in his college that had taken over my place? I really sad when he told me about that something happen to his family and he does not wish to mention it. But he told *X* about it. He even cries in front of her. Am I jealousy?  Did I jealous *X*? He went out with *Q* for the whole night to make himself feel better. Yes, I agree that you know *Q* for so many years, but you know his characteristic. Hel bring you to some ddiction?life where you might lose you life?!!

 

Or is it only me that the problem occur? Am I thinking too much? Or having a boyfriend will cause me lose all my good male friends? I really sad to know Ie lost such a good friend.

 

I sat for my Law paper 1 today. And I did something very stupid. The question is asking delegated legislation but I wrote judicial precedent. I already very sad about this matter. I tried to text him and hope to get some comforting word from him. Who knows, it turn up to be more disappointing. May be I should learn to be more independent and get used to be in an isolated world of myself. May be I should let go this good friend of mine and let me disappear from his life for ever. I shall just be a memory in his high school. I shall walk away from his life and get on with my own life. However, you will still be invited to be either the flower boy or the ring man of my wedding no matter who am I going to marry.

Today, Thursday, November 16, 2006, 5.55pm, I shall seek for your forgive and forget. I will never be in your life any more. Hope that I once your best sister ever. Brother, Take care. Farewell my friend. Do your best in every thing. When you feel like everyone is turning their back on you, please remember that I will never turn my back to you, my friend. I will always be there when you need me.

 

God, please bless my friend. Hope that he could live on and bless me while I letting everything down.

 

 

 

Luv,

Nichole