幸福。。。 离开。。。

幸福。。。

是必然吗。。。

能让某人淹没吗。。。

可让某人决定吗。。。

该应某人而放弃吗。。。

热恋。。。

该应某人而停止吗。。。

会再遇见吗。。。

该想吗。。。

离开会比较好吗。。。

。。。颍

Fear

Standing in front of the window.
Staring out. I'm scared.
I have fear. Just like you.
Behind the steel mask, its me and my fear.
The uncertainty. The choices. The doubt.

Standing in front of the window.
Removing my amour. Breaking down.
My vision taken over by tears.

Would the dawn bring clarity?
Would the dusk bring answer?

I'm scared.



Nichole

Liberty and break free

I just can't wait... to depart...

A place where... liberty obtained...

... attainable?... I doubt so...

For so long as I reside...

... I doubt so... 

It's all building... the strain...

of mental and physical...

... mostly disposed onto... and unasked for...

I wonder when... And I keep wondering...

N

2014 Resolution

So it's the time of the year where you review what have you archived and what do you wish to archive in coming days.

As I am reviewing mine, I realized I gained so much meanwhile I lose a lot as well. For every one thing I gain, I lose something precious to me. Vice versa. I lost a person, but I learnt a lesson. I gained strength, but I lose trust. So I start thinking, what is life? Do I really need to care so much? Or should I be more self-centered? What is my direction in life?

And then something happened. I was then enlighten that our lives is actually all written and decided. And as I always quote, believe in faith and fate. All we can do and control is all the small things in life; How and what we chose to bring along when we're on our way to our own written path; How we take detours and whether we enjoy the path…

So here's my 2013 resolution and my achievement:
1. Pick up golf. Got my clubs and shoe but yet to get anyone to teach me. So I shall carry forward this.
2. Learn French. Nope, didn't get to learn. Carry forward!
3. Pick up at least one latin dance. Nope…. Sigh
4. Lose/maintain my weight. YUP!!!! I may have binged eat for a certain time period, but I manage to shed it off thereafter.
5. Pass my professional paper. HELL YEA!!! My proudest and happiest moment in year 2013!!!
6. Get a job. Uh huh! Got myself a stable job.
7. Start saving up for my dream car. I'm only getting fresh grads pay. I can't barely pay for my own living. Don't even bother saving for my dream car. But soon!! One day I'll have you, my dear dream car.
8. Be healthier. Cut down on sugar and oil. Yeap! :) And I'm making this my lifestyle for good!!
9. Stop buying shoes/bags. I manage to hold my crave to not buy any shoe up till my results day. But I deserve it. And it's on 80% sales! And it's for CNY! So yeap, I've archived this!!! :p
10. Participate marathon. Adidas King of the Road babeh!!!
11. More charity. To be very honest, I really did a lot more charity this year. And I feel really good about it. I think I'm going to make this my yearly goal.

And I present, my 2014 resolution:
1. Pick up golf.
2. Learn French.
3. Hike Mt. KK
4. Participate in more marathon.
5. Obtain patent and trademark agent.
6. Lose more weight
7. Rock climbing
8. Save up to bring my parents to go on a nice holiday
9. Bake a cake for every family member's birthday! 
10. More charity!

This year, I'm going for something more practical and fun. And lets hope that 2014 will be a better year for me. And for everyone too!!

So what's your 2014 resolution?




Nichole

Clearer Path

Now that I have gave it another chance and an uninfluenced, unbiased observation, I have a verdict. 

I may lost something that I can have. But I gain clearer vision of my future path and choice. And the latter is more precious. 

And I have my verdict. 

Nichole Xx

Minding my Own Business

I understand that every person have their person of importance in their life. And everyone have their own choice of decision. However, I find it annoying when someone go against their own beliefs, or act against their own wills, OR breaking promises just because that person ask you to.

To make things worst, that person is just a mere friend who played you/betrayed you for a gazillion times.

No doubt I am learning to let things go. Especially things that do not concern me. But I really can't stand witnessing people doing that to my friends, and my friends then will have to cancel their plans for that person.

I learned from a new acquaintance of mine, no one should worth my time or effort for feeling uneasy for their matters. I should just enjoy what I'm given and work hard for what I want. Can I really do that? We shall see.

I do not live long enough to realise a lot of things in life. But I have people around me to let me learn from. And I learn from my dad that friends comes and go. We should keep those good ones at arms length. Just arms length. As for those who bring more negativity than positive aura, we should know where to keep them. In the mean time, keep building that network. Constantly make new friends. And keep moving. Standing stationary on a spot will do me no good.


Signing off,
Nichole


 

Skinny vs. Fit

The common perception is that skinny people is healthy and fat people is not.

Truth is, skinny may not be fit and fat my not be unhealthy.

There are a lot of girls skip meals and do all kinds of unhealthy act to make sure they fit in XS clothes. But that does not mean you're fit. A fat girl might win a marathon but not a skinny girl.

To me, it's all about fitness and health. I don't care so much about what size I fit in. As long as I know I can run that extra miles, as long as I can carry that extra pounds, as long as I can have that extra set of sit ups.

Gym has become my favourite place to be. It became my passion. It became part of my living.

So all fat people out there, do not let those skinny people to crash you. You are beautiful as long as you are healthy and have your fair share of exercise. Speaking from experience.


Have an awesome work out and feel the change in your body, and also your living.


Signing out,

Nichole Xx