Respect

Here's a question to all my reader: will you respect someone who don't respect you?

My answer to this question is definitely no.

Last Monday during my English class, my lecture, an old bald Indian man, gave me a hard time. I'm not sure with others but he totally screwed my week.

He's asking if we're done with our essay (the title 'why Malaysia a blessed country?'), although the essay is so lame and not really up to our course standard, I do however put in my effort to attempt it. He gave us an email and asks us to send our essay to that email. He however gave us the wrong/incomplete email. Anyway, this is not the point. He asks us if we're done with the essay. There's only 4 students, include me, in the class when he's asking. Whole class did not do and my answer to him is almost finished. He gave me the 'you're lying and I don't believe you' look. So I said, 'I show you my essay last week, do you remember? I'm on my way to finishing it already.' So he replies, 'half done is not done. There's nothing in this world can be half done. Do you serve your food with half done?' yes I do agree that half done is not done and so on. But he's challenging my knowledge on food. That's an insult when my dad is a cook and he owns an F&B business. So I told him in a light chatting way, 'there is food that can be serving half done or even raw.' And he keeps saying there's impossible to serve food that's not cooked or raw. My classmates back me up by saying beef can be served half done and Japanese food can be serve raw. He holds on tight that it is impossible for food the serve uncooked/ half cooked. He's talking to a bunch of lawyer-to-be and he should know the outcome especially when there's someone (ME!!!) who has better knowledge about food that him. He finally gives up and starts the class.

He starts talking about our essay and how are we supposed to approach the essay. For your info, he had taught us that last week and he intends to repeat it again this week. I'm someone that is brave enough to speak out my taught and my uneasiness. So I said this to him, 'Sir, is it possible to not repeat the same thing as last week? Because it's kinda bored for us to have the same thing again.' So he reply, 'Ya, sure, you all are the customer and this class is tailored made to suit all of you. It's good to speak out. Good. Very good.' Of course I'm glad and am ready to learn new stuff. And of course again, I hears whispers behind. I know I should ask my other class mates if it's okay for me to say so. It is very selfish of me to ask him not to re-teach. Classmates of mine might want to re-learn and not feel bored about re-learning the stuff. I do agree it's my bad. But think about it, there's 8 out of 10 who DARE NOT to speak for them selves and just take whatever that is given. So even if I get opinion from them, I won't be surprise that they'll say its okay and ask me not to speak out and so on.

Whatever said is said, it can't be reverse. So I just don't bother about the whispers. I'm paying attention on they things he taught although it's not really something that could help us in our English knowledge. And than one of my classmates ask the lecturer for her text book. Of course, she did not ask it by herself. Her friend asks on behalf of her, typical shy soft spoken Malaysian girl. She told the lecturer that she paid for the book and not received the book yet. Than the lecturer kinda angry that he say we accuse him for taking our money and so on. He starts telling that he will never do that and how rich he is. He start saying that he have a doctor wife, very rich and successful children, receive RM8k rental every month and he has 4 million ringgit worth of assets, and he do not have to take our RM13.80. Than our class rep told him and makes things clear to him. Than he finds out that it was his mistake. He still felt 'hurt' for us to 'accuse' his. He's ego is too high that irritate me. He is accusing us for accusing him!!!

Throughout the whole lecture he keep saying how rich he is, he don't even have to work and yet he wont finishes his money and so on. He even looks down on us. He say Jackson's dad impossible to earn 10k per month. Isn't it normal that a household which is above average spend about 10k every month on all the fees and mortgages? My family spends more than that even I'm just in the ranking of average family. It is such an insult!! So he thinks he's the only rich people in the world la izit??!!! Anita's parent is also a doctor okay!!! Your wife is not the ONLY doctor in this world!!! Naeem cant stand his insult and he walk out of the class. I know it is very rude for him to do so, but everyone have different level of patients and anger. I can't stand it either. So once again, I put on my hand and request him to continue with the lecture. He throws me a big fat 'SHUT UP'!!! How can a so-called highly educated lecturer say that to a student??!!! I seriously feel like walking out of the class and join Naeem. But I did not because I respect him as an old man and a lecture. I seriously could burn down a whole house by that time. I'm so pissed that I nearly cried. Of course I did not. I'm someone who cares a lot on my reputation. As usual, I'm not planning to attend his class any more.

I told my parents about it. My mom says as long as I did not fight with him, than its okay. They kinda support me thou. Anyway, what's worst is that later I found out that words going out that the act of mine are very disrespect to the lecturer. I am so angry that I could eat human. I used to respect him and listen to his lecture but he is the one that do not respect me first okay!!! Yes he did apologies after the class end. Imagine, I shouted at you and call u a fucking idiot old man in front of everyone/colleague, than I apologies an hour later, will you not piss after that? Will you forgive me after I slap you in front of everyone and say sorry later? I'm not an easy going type of people. And please don't mess with me when I'm angry especially I have such a short temper. So what if he apologies? I'm the one that get all this, not you, of course you'll take it easy and as if nothing happen. How do you people expect me to forgive him just because he's old and balding?

My class rep can't stand his teaching style as well, so she complains to one of our law lecturer. When we were complaining to the lecturer and discussing how to settle this problem, everyone seems to have an issue with him and so desperately wanted to change English lecturer. 'Either he go or we'll go'. Everyone that attend the English class do back up with each other and supporting each other, and giving pressure our lecturer to talk to the head of department. Surprisingly, after the discussion, another face of the human being seems to come out to fit in and be the Mr/Ms Nice People. One of them says that we shouldn't complain about him and we should respect him. HELL!!!!! Why do you ask me to respect someone who doesn't respect me???!!! Do I still bow and kiss his hand after he kills me? Call me an evil or bitch or whatever you all can think of, that's MY WAY of doing things and please don't interferes me if you agree with what I've been doing one seconds ago.

What's worst is that, if you have an issue with me, bring it to me, be a man and bring it out!!! Why do you spread around and talking behind of me while smiling and giving me the 'friends forever' look? (Do we consider this as backstabber?) Talk to me and just challenge me, I don't mind as long as you don't be two sided face. I really hate it when people do that to me.

I seriously have a bad week. People seem to be doing everything behind me and fear that I know and yet wanted to hold on to me just because I'm still useful. Have you all forgotten that I'm a very good observer and I do have an invisible antenna on top of my head? Although I act like I don't know but I DO aware of everything that are happening, is just that I don't wish to kick it out and make you into a situation where you are speechless. And yet, people seem to be going over my limit.

Am I really evil, mean and bitcy?

Oh well, I've type a lot and I do not wish to influence my dear reader's day with such a mean evil post. I'll stop here and do hope to get some of YOUR opinion towards this post or what do you think about it. No matter you agree with me or not. I do appreciate it. Thanks.

Love,

Nichole @ Lai Yin