Love is in the air….

For the last few years, there are only 3 guys confessed to me. There's 2 said I love you and 1 I like you. I would prefer to hear like than love. Love is such a strong word to say. Call me retard but I seriously no idea what love is and how does is feels.

Last month, I was chatting with Mr Funnyguy on MSN. He suddenly pops me a question, 'do you want to be my girlfriend?' I told Alvin about it and he says it's not consider confess, so I'll call it pre-confess.

Mr Funnyguy never says he likes me nor loves me. So I assume he's asking the question just for the sake of having a girlfriend. I'm trying to be polite and told him that he don't really know me. And he says that we could try first. Who knows may be we really can work things out. I can't be so nice anymore. I have to be cruel and thus I rejected him by giving him a big fat NO. So there goes one of my buddies. After this incident, he did not ask me out for movie or meal anymore. What's worst is that I MSN-ed him and he never reply. I don't mean to be mean but damn you Mr Funnyguy. Although I rejected you, we could still be friends right? Sigh, nowadays people don't seem to treasure their friendship. It is fate that brings us together why do you want to lose it just because of this tiny little matter? I never seen him and heard of him till few days ago I meet him in a mall. Than only I know that he'll be leaving Malaysia really soon. He'll be studying overseas for few years. I don't even manage to ask him which university and what country he's going, he just kind of runs away. Am I really THIS scary to face? I am a carnivore but I don't eat human. Good luck dude. All the best and May you found someone that really suits you.

I told this incident to Alvin and he just says Mr Funnyguy is a bastard. And he asks me to forget about him. He says there are a lot better guys out there. But I don't seem to see any Mr Mycupoftea. What ever it is, Mr Funnyguy did stand a chapter in my life. And I do treasure him as one of my buddy.

I meet up with some old friend for movie and lunch today. Well, I've isolate myself from my old buddy since last year. It feels good to meet them again. Nicholas broke his left arm in a car accident and he has to differ a semester due to the injury. Shing Yi is still the same old little girl. While Munn Sing doesn't seem to gain any weight. He's still the dry cucumber that invited me to his birthday party last year. While we were having a light talk over our tea, we kinda mention about guys that I'll like. I made a statement. I don't demand for a guy who is 100% perfect in every aspect, but to have a better status than me in every aspect. Yes, I'm a moderate materialistic girl. I'm not greedy at all. And I even made an example. I might be a lawyer in the future so you won't expect me to married to a rubbish guy or a construction worker right? I'm not saying a rubbish guy or construction workers are lousy, but it's just not in my standard. I want someone who is more capable than me, smarter than me and better than me. I want someone that could do the decision for the family and lead the family. I want someone that could share my worry and discuss my stuff with. Not me doing all the man's job. I want a MAN not a BOY!!!

Guess this explain why I reject guys that are same age as me and guys who are not so mature yet.

Anyway, after approximate 8 months of not seeing each other, Nicholas claims that I've change. I'm not the high school Lai Yin any more. People, any comment? What ever it is, I'm glad that he says I changed in a good way. That means I'm better than the old me. Hahaha…. Happy!!! Well, Nicholas did not change except that he knows more about food now, duh~~ He still whacks my head and punches me on my arm. He says there's something that I've not change since the day he know me, that is the bubbly me. Talk non stop for the entire afternoon. What to do, I love talking wert.

Love,

Nichole @ Lai Yin