One Step at a Time, in Nichole's Way: farewell college...

The consequences of being ugly/not pretty enough/fat and infamous is that no one will be celebrating your birthday and they might just as well forgotten about it, don’t even mention birthday present. I believe in my own belief that how I treat people, people will treat me in the way I treat them. But no matter how much I’ve invest in my belief, I end up losing. And I wonder is this philosophy true? I have not received a bday present since yonks from my family; I even have to buy my own cake!! The last time I receive a present is when I was so young to remember anything and the last time I receive a present from a friend is during form 5, which is from Pauline, my high school best friend. That really sounds pathetic. And I have NEVER has a family member or friends throw me a party/celebration, don’t mention surprise party. Received one of my ex-class mate’s text message today and asking me if I’m free on Sunday, at first I’m so thrill that I thought he’s asking me out for a hang out or so since I’ve not meet them for months and I’ve been missing them so much, but who knows it’s actually to celebrate another of my ex-class mate’s birthday. Very obvious, the birthday girl is the pretty one. I think I’m getting jealous of it. I’m not whining and complaining about my look or what, but every time I’m just celebrating people’s birthday and buying presents for peoples. And I’m seriously getting sick of it. Why can’t someone plan a birthday dinner for me? Or is it because I have too high expectation in good café and a quality gift and it does makes people dare not to plan or get me anything? I’m curious. Having high expectation in good food doesn’t necessary means expensive food; quality gift does not meant by branded bags or expensive things. As long as you bring me something good and use-able, I’ll be more than happy. All I want is just a quality food, gift and time with my loves one, from my love one. You may say I’m materialistic and I do not deny it. But why do you spend money on something that you do not deserve to spend money on? Buy something good in quality and something that the ‘gift receiver’ needs; spend more on a plate of good meal than saving a bucks for a plate of nothing.

May be I should be more appreciate to what I’m having now. You all may hate me now for me being jealousy, materialistic and too high expectation. But I just have to speak out to correct the situation. DON’T SPEND MONEY ON SOMETHING THAT’S BAD. I would rather don’t spend that bucks if I HAS to spend on something bad.

And one more thing, good quality does not mean EXPENSIVE. You can still get something cheap yet good in quality.

Last day of college. And thanks to me, I set a dress code for today, Formal. Girls have to wear dress or formal skirt and shirt; guys in shirt and tie. I’m really sorry to Cheah Ying that you have to spend 4 hours of shopping to get a dress just because of my silly idea. Spent my whole day laughing and cam-whoring and eating. I’m so full that can’t even manage to stuff in a small slice of cake that I share with Roxy. I dint even took dinner. Okay, I did. I took star fruits and a cup of tea. And it took me an hour to swallow.

Okay, gonna continue on my English Legal System.
Love ya~

Love,
Nichole @ Lai Yin

p/s: we took a grand total of 400+ pics today. Will have more photos when people send it to me. Well done Yvonne for getting a FOC pro+cute photographer to take the graduation ball’s pics. But so sad that I can’t make it there. Sorry guys.

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