Emo post…

After few incidents from Roxy's friend accident-death to the words from Ms Grace, I have the sudden urge to cry. I'm glad than I have my family and friends close to me, but however, I'm terribly sad these days when the word 'graduate' strike past my ear, eyes and mind.

I'm going to walk another big step again like what I've did 1 and half years ago. I'm going to leave my class mate who had been with me for 18 months. For the past 18 months, we did so many things together. We have our lunch together, have our Ms-Pun-attack together, we suffer the same stress, we laugh on the same joke, we celebrate our birthday together, we go through the tough time together and we learn together, as well as grow up together. We had an unbreakable bond just within these short 18 months. But the situation had forced us to be separate. 1 month later, we'll be leaving each other to the other part of the world. My last memory of them will be the last day of my finals. I know I'm going to miss them a lot. And it will be impossible to gather all of us to have our lunch and joke over the 1 whole line of long table. I'll miss those days where we cam-whore, and teasing each other. I'll miss people calling me 'Lai Lai' and Nick. I'll miss going math tuition with Cheah Ying and Jia Hui. I'll miss magazine sharing days. I'll miss bitching about girl-next-door with my girls. I'll miss talking about footie with my buddy. I'll miss Jen and Roxy keep call 'AH LAI' when ever they saw Mr. Cheow. I'll miss spot-the-cute-and-hot-guy action. I'll miss everyone and everything.

I'm in love. Yes, you hear right. I'm in love. Ever after I broke up with HIM, I had not been loving someone like what I used to during high school. But them, my class-mate, bring the feelings back to me again. I love my class mate. Not only You and You, but the whole class, 28 of you. what will I be the next few months; what will we be? Will we still keep in touch like my high school buddy? *shake head from William* *others nodding*

Lets do some imagination, one fine day, You bump into me on the street of KL, as usual, I'm still the same old freak, but you're a Dr holder or a CEO of XXX company, what will you do? Will you still hug me tightly, saying 'LAI YIN!!! How are you?? I miss you so much' and invite me for a cup of tea while drop down the work you're supposed to do or you'll just shake my hand and say 'Lai Yin, how are you? I would like to have a coffee with you, but I'm really busy. Got to go, will call you for lunch when I'm free (which is just a white lie).' Than pick up your phone, start talking and continue walking. Or, you'll just pretend that you do not recognize me/did not notice me, continue with your job on hand, than underneath your heart, silently says 'freak…!' or worst, you'll just shout to me 'F**k off, freako…!'

No matter which reaction I'll get, you all will still be my friends. Here's a lame sentence but I has to say it 'once a friends, forever a friends.'

May you all enjoy your graduation ball and continue your path with determination.

Love,

Nichole @ Lai Yin