Remember my old post, exactly a year back, the one about
my desire bf criteria? The one the inspired Andrew to write a post on his
desire gf criteria, and end up he getting a really
real gf who get most/all of the criteria he listed. Happy for him thou. However, for me, I'm still single, unwanted, fat, ugly and stupid. ^^
People keep asking about the criteria of my desire partner/soul mate, I don't really want to reply them because desire and reality can never, or perhaps seldom go together.
I may sound desperate or emo or what ever that you can think of, the fact is, I'm not desperate for a relationship. I'm not going to get into any of the just-to-get-a-bf type of relationship. I don't want a puppy love relationship. I don't want a just-for-fun thing. Reason? All the while I was told that relationship will ruin my studies etc. However, I never believe it. Even so, I still place studies first, family second, money third, health/life fourth and friends fifth. Bf will never be in my top 5. Sorry to say so but I'm serious, and it never change since the day I crown my top 5 important thing in my life. Today, I witness the fact that my parents told me all the while. Relationship does more or less kinda ruin your studies. And thus, it strengthen my top 5 list.
I was once told and overheard that people comparing me to some other girls. Saying, I'm not the type of girl that guys will fall for in time of days or weeks but months or years. Compare to Miss X who have the ability to make guys fall for her in days, but as time pass, guys will tend to move away from her. I was curious and does not believe it. Till the day a long time admire of mine told me that my attitude, personality and character that attract guys to befriend with me. But, guys will not approach me with all kind of lame opening line just to befriend with me, according to Mr X, this is because I do not have the look that could attract guys as mention before. So, those who will fall for me highly likely are those who know me for long. This is because the 3 element mention above needs time to see them in me. According to Mr X who is now my normal ordinary friend after I turn him down.
I once jokingly told Michelle that no one wants me. Being the silly naive Michelle, she comfort me by telling me that there will be someone out there secretly liking you, is just that I did not notice it or know it. Guess she's worry that I might commit suicide. Ehehehhehe.... I wont do this kind of silly stuff dear Michelle. No worry. Thanks for comforting me anyway. I'm not sure with Michelle's statement, but I do believe in fate. Very not me, I know.
Just a small fun facts on Nichole that you don't know, I'm a better friend to guys than girls. Since primary school, I can go very well with almost every single guy in the class. In fact, I had a few argument with my girlfriend while nil to guys friend. During high school, I'm so buddy with guys until all kind of rumors spread and I slowly move away from guys who are 'involve' to prevent further misunderstand as some of them have girl friend already. College, I even made one of my friend misunderstand that I'm interested in him. Gosh, this is so ridiculously funny when I thought of it. And just for your info, I do not act, sound and look like a bitch when I'm around with guys. In fact, I have same attitude and character in front of guys friend and girls friend. The only time I become timid and very not me is when I'm facing my parents friend who can criticize you kao kao even with just some minor minor stuff like I refer male human as guys than boy/man. Hmm... Understand me better now?
I'm even closer to my male cousin no matter younger or older than me. So readers, if one day, you saw me having a meal over the table with only a guy or with a whole row of guy, please don't be surprise and start saying all kind of crap. I'll announce to the world if I'm in a relationship, so you do not have to waste your precious time to wonder if THAT guy is my boy friend or if I fancy that guy or if that guy is dating me or what sort. Further, like I always say, I'M TOO UGLY AND FAT AND SCARY TO BE TAKEN!!!! So save your time. One more important thing, keep in mind that I'M NOT A LESBIAN. I'm a normal ordinary girl who stalk and fancy and have crush on hot hunk. And like I always tell people, I LOVE MAN!!!! Mwahahahhahah....... Scared you dint I?
Oh, and I also did mention this point in my old post.
Jennifer once told me that her desire ideal bf criteria is her dad. As in someone has the characteristic as her dad. And she claim that a lot of girls wish for that too. I kinda disagree with her criteria. I think being too daddy is a bad thing. Imagine your bf treating you like his daughter. EEwww... No offense Jen....
Anyway, I've improved and update the criteria.
- Age gap: Min 2 years, max 5 years. Same age men are highly unlikely to be as mature as I desire.
- Height: Not as tall as Peter. May be 180cm?
- Weight: Not as skinny as Joo Foong and not as chubby as.... Nicholas perhaps.... or either Wei Lim... Ehehhehhe...
- KNOW computer game. Not addicted to computer game.
- At least know ONE type of sports. A plus for swim, basketball, gym and ball-room dance.
- Animal lover as usual.
- Read books but please, not nerd or geek or what sort.
- Know what to wear at the correct time and space. Shirt plus jeans and sports wear appeal me the most.
- Could talk as much as I can.
- Smart. As in brain smart, not look smart. I want a brain, not face. Further, I want him to lead the relationship and I'll just rely on.
- Good career. Do not really matter if he owns a company.
- Loves kids perhaps?
- Characteristic, hmm.... Not too bad will do. Do not murder, do not cause GBH, ABH, rape and crime. If he would change his bad attitude for a better relationship, its a plus. I guess.
- Do not have to be like David Beckham or Orlando's look. Normal ordinary will do.
- Have the same idea in his desired relationship as I have, that is, trust and respect.
- And I don't really bother about his ex-s. So what if he has a million of ex and not a 'virgin' anymore. Just don't bigamy will do.
- Own a valid driving license. So that I do not have to drive him instead. No particular chun driving skills required. A plus if he has Sid's driving skill.
While typing these criteria, someone is actually in my mind. NOT YUKI!!! But one of my high school senior who is 2 years older than me and he's one of the athletic that represent the school and state. And he's also a smart guy. I'm not implying that I fancy him, Okay, I admit, I do fancy him, but it's impossible okay, lost contact with him. Oh WAIT, I'm not even his friend, how the hell do I keep in contact with him. Anyway, I think he's the one that make me set the criteria of my desire bf. And I do think he'll appear in my mind once in the blue moon when I'm thinking about CHS. Ehehheheheh...
Oh well, Joo Foong told me a minute ago that a good night sleep is very important for a girl who wish to look good the next day. And he also told me that he once read this psychology article saying that must great girls sweet dreams before she goes to bed. He went offline before telling me the reason of that theory. Anyway, since there will be no harm saying so,
SWEET DREAMS GIRLS and GOOD NIGHT GUYS!!!
Love,
Nichole @ Lai Yin
p/s: Its 1.15 am now. There's class early morning tomorrow. Have to sleep already. Yea, a date with my dream guy. Anyway, go and Google the history of cupid. It's really interesting.
