爱。离别

因为互相吸引而相爱。因相爱而了解。因了解而分开。

幸福。。。 离开。。。

幸福。。。

是必然吗。。。

能让某人淹没吗。。。

可让某人决定吗。。。

该应某人而放弃吗。。。

热恋。。。

该应某人而停止吗。。。

会再遇见吗。。。

该想吗。。。

离开会比较好吗。。。

。。。颍

双鱼座

希望发生奇迹。细水长流

心中的矛盾点

容易爱上不爱自己的人。

性情温柔，易于相处，令人难以抵御的奇异的魅力。

浪漫而富于幻想的人，

十分需要有人保护。

快乐与悲伤、积极与消极、向左与向右….

非常叛逆。

“你变了。” 是的，过去的都已经过去了。

真爱就是唯一，不是某一类，而是某一人。

情感太过丰富, 自己也无法控制，

直肠子个性。尤其是失望的时候。

太多的情感，终至无法自拔

Nichole

Errand

You're seeking favour.
And you're giving me order.

I'm not obliged to.
So be more merciful and appreciative.


Nichole

Liberty and break free

I just can't wait... to depart...

A place where... liberty obtained...

... attainable?... I doubt so...

For so long as I reside...

... I doubt so... 

It's all building... the strain...

of mental and physical...

... mostly disposed onto... and unasked for...

I wonder when... And I keep wondering...

N

As*hole

I remember my friend once told me, whoever that break up with his friend will be an as*hole. So I ask, what if both also your friend?

He say...

Both also as*hole...



Nichole

一个

我还有太多心愿 
太多梦没有实现 
桌上还留着过去的照片 

我一个人的失眠 
一个人的空间 
一个人的想念

是谁的眼泪
是谁的憔悴 
洒满地的心碎 

我一个人的冒险 
一个人的座位 

一个人想着一个人 
眼角的泪这不是错觉

N

filial and freedom

I don't understand anymore...

What is being filial? Kowtow to everything? Do as they pleased?

Than what is personal freedom and space? What is own thought?

Something that's so scarce that I thirst for...



Nichole

Confide

When you ask if you can confide to me, I was thinking otherwise....

True enough, I wasn't in the right mind...




Nichole

Chaperone

Chaperone.

I'm so tired of being one.

Is it wrong for me to not feel belonging anymore? Not belonging to something that I once thought I'll own. The desire of moving on is so strong. But where can I lodge?

Where is the world I wholly reside? I wholly belong and own...

Chaperone... And I shall continue to be... Until I found what I wholly belong...




Nichole

Dream...

I have a dream. But will I live the dream that I dreamt.

Pisces, the dreamer.

It's supposed to have an exciting chemistry. But where it went.
Where's the excitement and desire once appeared so fiercely?

Dream... Its just a dream at the end of the day...




Nichole

傻

如果爱一个人会变傻，值得吗？
那你又会愿意为我而变傻吗？
我值得吗？




Nichole

Ville de L'amour

One day, I'll be there…

… With you…

Pine for...

I don't want to...

....But I can't bear the absence

Nichole

Yuki and the Long Bean

So as you know, I have a baby. Her name is Yuki and I lover her to bits.

She's the cutest little (not literally) thing I have in my life. And just like every other dogs, Yuki is extremely greedy. Especially towards greens. So my maid was washing this bunch of long beans in the kitchen. And Yuki suddenly came running out of the kitchen with a long bean in her mouth and CRAZY guilty look in her eyes.

So we thought she stole the greens from the kitchen again. And we started laughing at her really guilty look. Then, to our amaze, she just sat there with the greens in her mouth and not chewing the greens. So we look closer and realized the greens is actually stuck in her throat. Her saliva was dripping all over and she's terrified. Instead of guilty. Or may be she's guilty as well.

We got to hold her firm, and pull the greens out of her mouth/throat. Poor dog. But she never learnt the lesson. She still go to the kitchen to steal greens.

All the little things I love bout my darling :)



Nichole

累了。。。

我好累哦。真的累了。 好想有人好好疼我。与我聊聊。

未来的你，还没找到路吗？或还想再看看世界？

我在等你。你知道吗？等的好苦哦。。。


Nichole

Day 9

It feels like total recovery. Or is it not?

Seeing green icon on and off. And spotting the name on top 5 list. I feel... Nothing. Or is it that I am fooled by my facade too. No one knows. Not even myself.

Side tracking from this. I took up couple of challenges. Hoping that I move on. For good. 

Nichole

Day 8

It's been a week now. Things got so much better. Fulfilling the promises all by myself over the weekend. One after another. May dug up the buried sentiment. But its the only path of recovery.

Smile. Positive. And get busy. That's my aim this week.

Then I saw. And my instinct strikes. A slash across my hollow heart. Is that the reason? I can't seems to breath. My heart stopped. That stab. That invisible sward. That invisible bleed. Just when I'm about to heal.

But who am I to ask. Who am I to concern. 

Nichole

Day 5

Lost of word. Numb. Aimless.

Picking up new hobby and getting engaged in it seems proper. But when I'm down alone. It all shatter.

Nichole

Day 4

Spotting green icon. Again. Was out in the mall the night before. And shadows everywhere. I may be surrounded by all lovely supportive people. But neither gratify the hollow path. Solitary. Deep inside. 

No sight of affixation. Perhaps that's the end of the tunnel. But where are the lights.

I constantly keep myself hustled. Wishing to closed that door. But it's just too heavy. I wish to speak. But I lost my voice and interest. I long to be alone. To mourn over. But I can't. 

Nichole